The website that offers support to people who are considering quitting cannabis

This site is dedicated to anyone and everyone who has ever sucked on a joint. Tokers jokers – fakers & spacers but especially those amongst us who have occasionally wondered what life might be like with a Clearhead, free of weed, totally connected with our feelings and emotions, alive and at peace with ourselves.

I had my first joint aged about 15 and finally found the strength to stop smoking nearly half a life time later.

Like you cannabis was my drug of choice. I was in love with the weed from the beginning in all of its forms. During the early years of my smoking I believed it was the answer to all of my problems. It seemed to help me relax, to concentrate, to create, to live the way that I wanted to live.

For many of us it’s almost impossible to imagine a life without dope. It’s helped numb our pain and shielded us from a terrible truth-life itself can be painful.

For others smoking is about pure pleasure, a best friend who helps make every experience more real, more intense, and more exciting.

So what happened? Is it possible that the weed I was smoking to make me feel better was beginning to make me depressed and unhappy? How come if I was smoking dope to relax I found that instead when stoned, my mind would always be racing, jumping from one thing to another, often I would feel anxious and paranoid for no reason.

How did my high change to just being stoned. When did the thrill simply turn into a habit?

My relationship with cannabis became more important to me than any other in my life. After a while dope did nothing to make me feel better about myself; eventually it took over my identity. I saw myself as stoner first and a person second.

So I decided to stop smoking spliff… In fact I decided to stop smoking spliff every day for many, many, years but without fail, the previous night’s decision melted away the next day. It was so much easier to carry on smoking than to stop.

My life functioned reasonably well and I knew that if I had been drinking or taking ‘harder’ drugs to the same extent that I was toking I would probably have been out on the street, but as a stoner I just about managed to keep my working life together.

But life became hard in other ways: simple things took so much time and effort. My lack of memory function made me feel foolish, my confidence shrank alongside my mental, physical, and spiritual energy.

I lost respect for myself and found that the only way to stop the negative voices in my head was to have another joint to help me forget how small my life had become. I was lost in a fog of dope. I’d forgotten how to be happy.

I tried stopping a few times but never for more than a few days maybe a week or so. All my friends smoked, sometimes it seemed like everybody I knew smoked. I just didn’t know where to look to find support.

Doctors and drug professionals weren’t interested in Cannabis problems; they practically told me to come back when I had a real drug problem.

Eventually I reached the point where my motivation to stop became more powerful than my habit. For me it was about finally growing up, I began to realise that emotionally I was the same age as when I started smoking all those years ago. I realised that if I truly wanted to fulfill my potential I had to re-commit to a life free of dope.

Through my association with Marijuana Anonymous and working on their help line, I met Adrienne together we learnt from and listened to hundreds of others with different stories who had all reached a similar point in the relationship with Cannabis,

over nearly three years, using our own experiences talking and listening to the struggles of others Adrienne and I have developed a straightforward and practical workshop that offers a time and a place for stopping, along with real support for what to expect during the days, weeks, and months that follow.

Over and over again, we hear the frustration of people unable to find support to help them kick their cannabis addiction especially if they live outside the areas where UK MA have their meetings. The message boards are designed as a meeting and discussion point to give and receive mutual support as you prepare for; or go through your first few months dope-free. Please treat the website and these boards with the respect with which they were designed. There is no political agenda and certainly no judgment surrounding the use of Cannabis on this site. The fact that many millions of people smoke responsibly and have control over their cannabis use is accepted by this website without question.